Last week was tough. I woke up and flipped through IG, I saw a devastating post that Kate Spade has left the world through ending her own life. I felt this immense pain and sadness as I truly liked her as an designer. Although along the history of fashion, colour pop and quirky designs trended in the fashion scene like Mary Quant, I believe Kate Spade is the strongest quirky yet practical brand that surfaced in my 'era' Kate Spade was often my to go to for fashion inspiration and I always love how she stuck true to her design elements which for this case was modern vintage with a nice colour pop. I really appreciate her designing style and that she can make simple silhouettes make it look so beautiful by adding little but striking details in each and every of her piece.
Days later, I found out through a friend that famous chef Anthony Bourdain has passed on by ending his life. He was 61 and I would guess he probably lived a pretty 'ok' life as he was a super famous and sought after chef.
When I read both articles on their sudden death, I freaked out a little. I couldn't understand how a happy rich people with a beautiful family can just end their life like that? There and then, I was transformed to readers like you, thinking about my life being perfect (read the previous post I wrote) Indeed, I assumed they were both happy and 'life was perfect for them' It was then I am reminded that depression is REAL, and it can creep to anyone's life in any possible way. In short, rich also can get depression, middle-income also can be attacked by depression and so are the poor.
Fighting depression alone is not easy and the worst part of all? You cannot tell anyone for you think that they will judge you and push you aside thinking you are crazy (the irony of it!) The problem with depression is that most of us think that it only happens on business people, important people and famous people but in real fact, it can happen to anyone. In the world today, the constant stress and expectations piled on us can be a tad too much for many to bear. Depression can come from anywhere and happen to anyone; from young mother with a little baby to a junior executive who just can't seem to keep up with work and it definitely can stretch to high positions which may include your boss. Depression is a freaky as it does not whack you with visible symptoms, it just weaves in slowly, inch by inch, one day at a time.
Last week was indeed dull and depressing to read about deaths due to depression but I took this opportunity to learn valuable teachings which allows me to understand myself more. I figured that material items like luxury items and fancy houses and cars may indeed feed you for a short while but unless you are truly happy, you will never be able to enjoy these items. I used to be looked down at when I was 18 because ex-boss brought me to good places which required me to smile and chat up with celebrities and famous people. I also shortly joined a luxurious trade of high-end jewellery which you meet really, really REALLY rich people and can never understand 'why are you always the same blouse every time I see you?' I felt much less than them and got angry. I got to a point where I wanted to prove a point so much till I lost control of my spendings. I am extremely thankful that Mr Ling came into my life and taught me the real reason to live and be able to live. I resisted and fought but eventually found inner peace through his strict teachings and him not spoiling me.
I know I definitely have tendency to slip into depression but I know I am not the only one. But I make effort to find solution by finding someone I trust to constantly talk to and never be judged by my words. Whenever Mr Ling chooses to shut his ears and think I am cray cray, I will immediately call to my besties for support and just by meeting up and rant, I feel much better.
The purpose of this post is to remind you that it is certainly okay to admit that you have depressed tendencies and constantly seeking for happiness but you can never understand how to find it. IT IS NORMAL okay? Just make sure you be open minded and speak to someone and listen to soothing meditation music and take baby steps to self heal. Depression is a long journey but never THE journey as we can overcome it! Remember that whatever that is bothering you, may it be physical health or mental, be open to talk about it.
I know I can do it and I will continue to work on it! And I manifest that you will overcome it too and that you are reminded that life is more than and that you are too precious to not fully utilize your fullest potential!
Love
K
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