random post...

Sometimes I think I am mad, I overthink too much, at the slightest issues and fuss over it for a looooong time. I start to doubt myself, my personality and KAYLENE (if the issue is related to the shop) and I start to feel all 'buggy' and emo. I start to think of the past and told myself, 'Kayde is different now, she is strong, she is confident and most of all she is 100% (100% of what? you fill the gap yourself :)) And I start to feel proud and before you know it, I start to get my butt up and gets ready to face the world...

Most of the time, I am the luckiest girl in the world. Obstacles come and I hop over with confidence and proper solutions to resolve. Sometimes, I am not, I get all sensitive, stress and worked up and still have to face customers with a nice big smile despite the 'bugs' crawling all over in my head... but God has been wonderful to me, he plants little voices in me, whispers and guide me to solve each and every hurdle. He also sent human form angels like Mr Ling, Shu n Pris, and many more to guide me into solving each issues.

How lucky I am you may think... But I bet you have someone like those mentioned too... but could it be possible that you have neglected these angels around you and slipped off your mind?

This post is really random and I deliberately did this blog post for myself. A reminder to myself that I am very loved and is indeed in good hands. What about you? Are you in good hands? Think you are not? Are you really sure that there is really no one you can look for comfort/advice?

Go on, take some time and think of the angels surrounding you in which you may have unknowingly missed.

Good night girlies! Long days ahead with peak season and tons of enquiries to reply before I can rest and hop onto the plane and relax. I am truly a blessed child I must say!

Donations to Lee Ah Mooi Home

What a beautiful Sunday! Just got home a couple of hours ago from the visit to Lee Ah Mooi home for the Elders. This trip was really an eye opener for me and I got to share with you my experience at the home...

In case you are still wondering,
in the month of December, I was asking the customers in Facebook on how we should celebrate KAYLENE's 5th birthday. After a few response and a spent some quiet time alone, I discussed with Mr Ling that I really wanna do something very meaningful for KAYLENE's 5th birthday. I told him about a little voice bugging me to do donations and he thought it was a good idea. His immediate response was to write a cheque and viola, mail to any home I was planning to give. But deep down, I knew it was not the direction I was 'told to do'. My little voice urged me to get out of the comfort zone and food donation was the task and not just giving money. Mr Ling heard about my plans and we started to do research on homes and what we could possible do for them. I did a few search and thought that Lee Ah Mooi was the best option for this donation. I wish I could do more and donate more to maybe a couple more homes, but I do have limitations as i do not have a car. Hence I decided to stay focus and stick to one home and thus being able to give more to them.

I called up to the home and Mark, the person in charge told me exactly what to prepare. They want practical food items like ginger, garlic, etc... Seriously, I had no idea how much to prepare. Then I found out that there are approx 115 people staying in the home and all meals are cooked in the home. From that guage, we prepared a rough estimation of 100kg worth of dried goods and 48kg of frozen chicken! PHEW!! Thats quite a bit of things to prepare!! Thank god for my father in law and his contacts, he managed to get really good deals and freshest of the lot and before you know it, we were off to visit the home. Mr Ling did great too! He did a few calls before getting a confirmed delivery to our home for the chicken at 5am! Superb!

When we reach the home, the very nice Mr Mark came to us and showed us the home a little. I also explained to him about the reason behind this food donation and he praised our customers for having so much love and compassion. Wow! KAYLENE customers, you did GREAT!

 (please click on the picture to see your name inside!!)

After speaking to him, I felt even more moved and proud of ourselves as we indeed did contribute to this home. Mark told me (eventually) that Lee Ah Mooi is his mother and told us The Lee Ah Mooi home was set up in the mid 1960s by late Madam Lee Ah Mooi. She sacrificed 2 rooms in her house (Teck Whye kampung) to take in the old folks and looked after them. However, neighbours disliked the idea as the old folks were causing disturbance to them and they were forced to move. Then they found a bungalow at Sembawang but again, the number of accommodation was limited. Finally they moved to Thomson Road, their current location.

I was deeply touched. Period. I knew that what we did for KAYLENE's birthday was right and from this experience, I told myself that in any possible way in future, I must do more of such meaningful events to help these people. Give back to the society in any possible ways. Before we left, Mark did mention that he was very happy to see green beans as he knew what to prepare for the old folks in a couple of days. He also told us that he constantly needs to cook for them. Whee! now we know what to prepare the next round when we visit them again!

Okay now! Go on girlies! show to your friends in facebook! Tell them that you were part of this meaningful event! Find your name and show them!

We thank you ALL for supporting this wonderful cause!

Love

Filming in Ngee Ann Polytechnic

Two days ago, I had a call from a student from Ngee Ann Poly and she needed urgent help from me as one of interviewee is unwell and unable to attend the filming. It is a project on plus size modelling and as a plus size entrepreneur. Honestly, it was really tough to squeeze in the schedule espcially this is a peak season for KAYLENE. Did I mention I was sick too? It certainly was not fun to wake up early when I was gorggy from the meds. I was hesitant at first but the thought of helping with the project was important to them, I had to say yes to help them. Hence, Priscilla and I went to the school and did the filming.

The school was amazing. we were impressed with how professional the studio is and all equipments were new and updated. It was really as though it was real set for Mediacorp! The shoot ended well! The filming ended smoothly and I was glad that I managed to help these students finish up the project as scheduled. Well done students! Though we did not have enough time to get to know each other better, from the way I see, I really feel you guys are going to be very successful in your future endeavours.

Love
K

 We had 3 cameras facing us and mics on, Did I mention that the rooms were so professional? There was a studio room with students each with tasks to do.

It was fun but a little stressing as there are actually minimum 15 sutdents, each has their roles to do, just to complete a 15 min interview...

The filming ended! With Model Priscilla Boh.

With our host, Natalie, cute girl! with lovely personality. I think she will go far after she graduates.

in 2013, all I want is to love myself...

Finally!! After working non stop for the shop, I am finally able to sit in front of my laptop and can do a decent blog. Before I start my blog post, I would like to thank my dearest Juliah for staying strong and healthy in the shop, mending the shop. Without her, I really could not accomplish so much and provide more goodies for our customers.

Now, 2013 slipped in really quickly this time as we have been too busy preparing stocks for customers almost everyday. We are almost replenishing new designs almost daily as many items sold out quickly. I am very grateful for a wonderful team including the factory and trusting suppliers who help me get by this peak season. PHEW! God has certainly been very sweet to KAYLENE!

On the 31st dec, Mr Ling and I went for a gathering for a mini birthday celebration, I was so happy that I could pull away from work for just a couple of hours and get to fill up my champange flute with rounds of moscato and zibibo... yumsy yumsy! Then one buddy popped the most asked question on every last day of the year and that was 'What is your new years resolution?' Well I was not spared from this question but I couldnt really answer. Hence, being a business woman, I plainly replied ' I wanna make more $$' Typical eh?

But deep down, I know that is not what I really want for 2013. I really couldnt answer myself at all. Mr Ling asked me later on when we were home and I still could not answer that question. It was only today, late afternoon I had flashbacks and images of myself when I was a size 10-12 and alot of emotions, humiliation, pains kept coming through my mind. I needed to know why I was so affected by the past...

The truth is, I am not physically well. I was told by doctorSSSS that my hormone are imbalanced and stress added to my weight gain. One doctor told me flatly that regardless how I try to diet, it will not work. All because my hormones are sort of a mess, haywire. In order for my weight to go back on track, I need to get my hormones back to normal. :) simple as that..

I then started to think of people surrounding me, wishing that I will be slimmer, wishing that I will exercise more and more importantly wishing that I can be their ideal role may it be daughter, friend or partner (ok la, to be fair, Mr Ling has never judged me this way as he knows my condition) The next thing I knew I got angry with myself, with my body on why of all people it has to be me etc.. I wish I could tell each and everyone my situation and explain to them. But seriously, do you really think it is that easy? no right??

So there, after the flashbacks and all the hoo-hahs on my mind, I decided that I will let go of my past and accept my body for how God has created me to be. I decided that in the year 2013 and there after, I will love myself by forgiviing my body (bad hormones) and weak mind (for thinking negative things) Only by doing so then I will truly be happy. I have been doing that in the recent months to be honest but i think I have never really gotten down to engrave it permenantly onto my puny brain. On top of that, as encouraged by Karen Foo (one of my dearest friend) I wanna concentrate on the love I have received from customers, friends, family and returning it back to them 100%. I told myself that as long as I am happy, healthy and a 100% honest Kayde, I dont really need to explain to any one at all.

So now you know my new years resolution. Have you made yours already? You are still not too late! I hope you will dunk the grieve and frustration in you and truly set goals and make effort to love yourself.

HAPPY 2013 girlies!

Love
K